I believe that often I am naive about the luxury that I am a part of-the life of a student at an adult age. As an adult I have lived, I have worked, spent years traveling and waiting tables and I know damn well how important is it to have a college degree…but it is very hard.
I worked all day today. AT&T only changes every day and because I only work part-time, when I come to work, I have new phones to become familiar with, new products, classes to take to educate myself on those products/change and then the actual work that I get paid for–selling. I love my job but it is completely overwhelming, and even more so when I have homework to be done for school.
It is my eternal battle-the choice between work and school. In those years in-between earning a Cosmetology degree and deciding to return to school for my real dream, I made good money. I learned how to spend money, get in trouble and work myself out of it.
But juggling school and work is a whole new animal. We are very different people at work than we are at school. For me, switching back and forth has never been easy and every time I think I am getting a handle on it-something happens.
I was taken to the hospital over 3 weeks ago in an ambulance. I was in so much pain that I knew there would be no quick fix, and as I saw the face of the woman looking my sonogram-I knew it was serious. The doctor told me that I had no choice-it was surgery or die. A cyst had attached itself to one of my ovaries and then burst which tore into my ovary. 90% of these cysts are healed within a woman’s body but I was not that lucky. I had severe internal bleeding and lost over 2 liters before the episode was over.
I lost right at two weeks of school and work. I had three wonderful teachers understand my dilemma and one that did not want to believe me. My bank account has drizzled and I now am over $20k in the hole because I do not have health insurance….
But there is light at the end of the tunnel. All is well now with my teachers, and while I have three huge tests this week, by Wednesday I will very caught up in my classes and steps closer to being completely caught up.
Money is of course a very different subject, but then, I never saw myself having some large amount of cash…so this debt will just be another part of life, and add to the debt I already have through school. I had joked with nurses in the ER that I had just finished paying off my credit cards….irony.
I am never good at writing about tough or negative subjects without having a positive ending-it just seems wrong to me but is not always honest. While I do often see the sunnier side of things when I write out my issues, you must know that I am not always sunny.
I am not sure where I will find the time to study for these three tests, or write the three articles that I must by their due times but all I can do is be hopeful.
Hope…these things we must always remember….