I love this time of year! While it seems that they say that we are attached to the time of year in which we are born-I never really felt that until I got older. Perhaps that little wives tale has nothing to do with fact or reality-but every fall I feel like I am being reborn. It is the most electric time of the year, the breezes are strong, the sun is tempting and the everything just seems crisp.
I took a walk today with my puppy. I haven’t been able to exercise for over 6 six, so when my doctor said it was now time to get a moving-well I have been doing just that and feel 100% better already. Some people drink, some smoke to feel better and relive stress-that used to be me but I gave up smoking (for the 20th and last time;) and I don’t frequent the bottle as often or with the same tenacity anymore. Over a year ago I realized that my clock is only speeding up and unless I wanted to be a smoking, boozing little lady forever-I needed to let it go. So I did-I started running, did a 5K, and began a relationship with nature that I had not had since I was a kid.
The weather has been so amazing lately with the sunny bright open skies, lazy wind and coolness that it has been difficult for me to concentrate in anything indoors. I want to be roaming the woods, laying in leaves, and listening to the crunch, crunch of my shoes.
But as I am nearing my 28th birthday I have a lot to reflect on. I don’t care much about New Years because to me-my New Years begins on my birthday-it is the significance of my birthday which is far more important that the entire world!! 🙂 I always become more introspective, I debate my errors, I smile through my leaps, and I begin deciding what it is I want this next year to hold.
I have to say that I absolutely love growing older. Every year I am more confident, more sure, and more lovely. I look in the mirror and I know me. I have pretty days, I have swollen ugly days-but I am me and I love me. I know that with time I will only become more settled in my body and that I will be able to grasp more of what is truly important versus the yips of the uncertain.
I love fall, I love fall, I love fall!! Don’t stay home in front of your f&*%&#%# television-get out there-get out and enjoy the warmth, the sun, and the incredibly heart breaking beauty of this time of year!
